Short msg:

Realize that this year up till today, I actually did a couple of very random, last minute decisions.

Sudden craving for pasta - Drove to Ikea.
Peppermint ice cream craving - Bought a tub.
Missed you - Ikea I went.
Wanted to support you - Intec I went.
Late night frisbee - Shah Alam 9-12am.
Spend time with you - hanged around in Tbun.
Urge to watch movie - Dragged someone along.
Missed your voice - Called and got dad pissed at the phone bill
Brownies and Cookies craving - Baked them.


I think there should be more. Don't really remember the others tho. heh.

Was it worth it? To hell it was! Every single bit of it!
Would I do it all over again? I sure will! (:

*~MaeYan~*
♥11:47 PM

Short msg:

At times when I'm feeling really crappy and demotivated on frisbee, daddy makes up for everything. (:

He bought me a new ankle guard knowing I already have one. Reason? Simply because he knows my current want is getting loose already. And being so clumsy I should be using a tighter one.

A brand new sunblock lotion simply because its less irritating to the eyes.

What will I do without you daddy? I don't know. Don't even want to think about it.

Without your support in frisbee I think I won't be able to travel around playing in different competitions, be it international or local. I won't be able to gain so much experience. I won't be able to have 1 in a life time memories with frisbee gang.

Love you daddy! (:

ps: I am after all daddy's little girl. Always.

*~MaeYan~* ♥11:50 PM

Its the period where my attention span deteriorates as every second pass. Finals are like round the corner!

So, was in Facebook (I know I know I shouldnt be in there) and was going through all the old Frisbee photo albums. I started going through the pictures and tagging poeple. lol! Sigh. So much for studying huh?

Anyway, seeing the pictures made me recall back all the frisbee times I had.

It all started while I was still studying CAT, Billy asked Rayven n Jodie to join the Sunway Frisbee Club. I, tagged along. That was where my frisbee history begins. Even when both girls quit I still played on, for fun at first, now its a whole different story.

Being in Rojaks was fun and simply chilling. Basic rules and men mark was all we cared. It was enough, then. I didnt really bother improving then too. It is afterall just for fun (:
Rojaks passion for frisbee aint as strong as other players. Some left, some quit, excuses were given, etc.. In the end, only a handful of us remain faithful that 1 day Rojaks would come back to glory.

That was also my turning point in frisbee. Occasionally going to KBU for pickups. I started knowing more people, the gang. PK, Emily, King, Murali, Ping, Kok, Louis, Mike, was among the first few I know.

Slowly, I put more effort into improving. I have to say King and Ping helped me alot into becoming a much better player. (Rojaks aside of cause) Because of them both I decided to join Carebears, where another chapter of my life begins.

Pimp My Hat July 2009 was my first ever tourney I really wanted to prove I had improve. Played with team Orange. My team was awesome. I however found the passion to improve. I was determine that every other tourney that I next join, I would have improve, would be playing better.

I later joined El Ninos in Singapore Ultimate Open 2009 in August. One of my many mistakes of standing up against Flying Naans. I'm trully sorry ): I have to admit when I went for that tourney, I was still lacking in experience. I didn't do my best. I didn't realise what was my specialty back then. I do now (:

With SUO in hand, I went on with a burning fire in heart to improve to be better than I was. Something I rarely had in me,the determination to improve that badly. With the help of Billy, Xing, Serngy, King, I did improve bit by bit.

At that time, I was already a Carebear. Went for my first ever friendly with Carebears against Shah alam team. There was where the frisbee family started expanding. By then, it was already October. Without realizing, I had been going on for so long.

Carebears at that point of team wasnt a fix team neither was it heading for anything serious. Things changed though. Frisbee started becoming political. It wasnt as fun as before due to all the politics going on. However, the frisbee gang is always fun to be with.

In year 2010, I started the year with 10th Annual Bangkok Hat to look forward. A huge group of us headed there together. King Ping Felix Louis Me Dad, and even Safwan JiMi Fizzi. (: I told myself I have to put a 101% for this tourney. I think I really did. Even though I made mistakes and everything, but everyday is a learning process. I cut hard, defend hard, ran hard, scored. I was happy.

Next up was Nottingham Open, I went as a Carebear player. Tiny bear - no.16 started becoming my trademark. We did pretty awesome up till the finals.

Then UiTM Open I played for Oopps - Nottingham. With so many tourney going on, my frisbee life doesnt seem to be slowing down a single bit.

Training twice a week, Wednesday night shah alam pickups, Tues n Sun occasional ISKL pickups, Sat KBU pickups. During that time, frisbee is part of my everyday life that without frisbee something just feels weird.

Sunway King and Queen in March was a tourney I had fun. Why? I get to play with so many different players! (: Not to mention all the company was simply awesome.

Intec Sports Carnival was a tourney I didnt join but I did watch the game though. I wasnt allow to play by a certain someone then, no complaints (:

It was also then I started having Saturday routines too. Pickup in the morning, lunch, cyber watching L4D2 till evening. Am so gonna miss Yeweng and Kok when they both leave.

There was also ASLI training for a couple of Sundays. I was determine to improve my stamina and speed after realizing my beep test result was crap :p

GenderMah in Singapore during April was great, bad field tho. Didnt expect the girls team to pull off such an impressive job, well done all. I did couple of mistakes too during the tourney which cost us the point. There goes my confidence in handling, again ): Otherwise, I did pretty well I think? (:

Malaysia Ultimate Open 2010 in May. One tourney I will never miss I told myself. I had to skip f9 edc for this tourney, was it worth it? It was. It was. Simply the fact that Carebears did such a good job was already a good enough reason. Moreover, being able to win Singapore teams, bliss.

However, this is where I started having doubts too. Its been a week since I last touch frisbee. Am not sure why but I'm sort of withdrawing myself from frisbee. I dont know whats happening. Its like I lost the fire in me. Probably I'm just pissed off and extremely dissapointed with myself?

Many thanks to those who had guide me through my entire walk. Starting from Billy, LiXing and Serng. Then, DavidLai , King and YiPing. Not to forget all the awesome people Louis, KokChywn, YewEng, SzeJin, Felix, Darren.

Of course, my beloved daddy who never fail to support me throughout my entire journey. Your endless support was very a really boost for me daddy. Be it on home ground, Singapore, even Bangkok you will always always be there for me. I love you daddy, you know I do (:

I've gone a long way. A really long way. I'll never forget the mistakes I've made, never forget all that I've been taught.

The best moments in frisbee was joining Rojaks then Carebears. Not to mention knowing every single of the frisbee gang. Life would have been different without you guys.


I did improve bit by bit. Am still gonna continue improving. (:


You and I existed, on so many occasions. I never realize till now. We actually did cross path, too many times.

*~MaeYan~* ♥12:01 AM

Short msg:

Its been a week since MUO. In other words, one week since I last played frisbee. Have to admit I do miss frisbee alot, in tons probably.

Had a simple farewell for Naj-Tipooo bear. Everyone calls him Penipu. Why? He is one hell of a good faker (: Best achievement so far was faking the Aussies cup :D

That was also the last I saw him. Heh. Gotta admit its much more comfortable being this way. Chillax talk etc etc.

I've been good. Studyin. (:

Finals approaching. meh.

ps: I'm letting you go. Not holding you back anymore.

*~MaeYan~* ♥12:42 PM

Malaysia Ultimate Open 2010

MUO 2010 was held on the 15th-16th May.

It was bigger and better than ever with up to 19 teams, including teams from Australia, Cambodia, Thailand, Vietnam, Singapore and of course Malaysia.

I played for Carebears under the leadership of Captain King. Our objective was to be in the winners pool and I'm proud to say we did it. Yes! It was the entire team hardwork and effort that made it all come true.

Day 1

Our first game of the day was against NYP,Singapore. We were leading with a big margin before half time till they started catching up. In the end, we won with a 9-5 (:


♥11:51 PM

Short msg:

Being sounded by you was perfectly normal. I didnt mind it a single bit until you started being too pushy. I understand your point and knows that habit is important. What I cannot stand was you kept saying and saying and banging me straight when you yourself was doing the same mistakes.

Yes! I do observe too! I'm not saying it out cause I don't want any arguments etc etc, but you were being abit overboard in case you didnt realize.

Furthermore, after seeing the list I realize how unimportant I am. Its funny isn't it? To only realizing it now. I'm asking myself is it even worth skipping 2 days of my EDC just for something that I'm not being appreciated of.

I know I'm not good. Nor do I have the stamina and speed. Or even anything else.

However, I know I did improve ever since I put an effort into it,even if its just a bit. But after all this? Is it worth it? Really? I'm not putting myself too high or anything cause I know I'm no where near good but.. all this really got me thinking.

Note to self:
Never ever give up the disc.
Never ever get frighten of taller bigger size people.
Always attack the disc.
Never just follow my opponent and not defense another person when I know I can defense it.
Always try to catch the disc instead of just hitting it down/away.
It is NEVER okay for my opponent to get the disc when I could have defended it.

Guess it really doesnt matter if I'm of importance. After all, it seems like I never did existed.

*~MaeYan~* ♥1:30 AM

Short msg:

Was it a sign telling I shouldnt have done the things I did?
Was it a clear message to me telling me to just let go?

I don't know. Maybe it is. Maybe, just maybe.

I'm not asking for everything.

I don't know is it good or bad.

As long as its used and kept nicely, I'm happy (: and thats all I'm asking for.

*~MaeYan~* ♥1:44 AM

Short msg:

Hate not being on talking terms with you.
Hate that I keep messing things up with you.

Ping says I gotta stop blaming myself for everything,its not my fault.
I however feels that it has everything to do with me.

At least I know that pink heart still stays.

*~MaeYan~* ♥1:03 AM

Short msg:

Screwed things up pretty bad.
Worst of all, I don't think it can be ever be rectified.

Its true that when you start losing something/someone,
only then you realize how important it is.

I realized it a little too late.

Amending all the wrongs I've done is not easy.
Especially when it seems nothing will ever be right again.

I never told you before,
but you meant everything to me.

*~MaeYan~* ♥11:42 PM