Ure 91 *coffcofff* liowww.. hahahaa.. Dun worryy.. ure not old yetttt.. coz there's olwiz sum1 OLDER than us.. *winkkss*

know who know whoo? *grinsss*


of coz its our dear JinLe lorrrhhh =D

anywayyy~

happy halloweeen too peepsss ^^


ps: next up ethan's b'day


*~MaeYan~* ♥10:51 PM

Sometimes,
its best for you to shut ur mouth up.
for you knew nothing thats going on.
stop acting like a miss-know-it-all.
it annoys me to the core.


ps:xmb~! I wan lvl *grinss*

*~MaeYan~* ♥12:35 PM

Sometimes I wonder whats your problem.
Why do you wanna shove us away from you.
Away from your life.
Kick us out from your heart.
Lock the door and throw the key away.

We care for you.
Yet we don't understand you.
Weird.

Everytime there will be an excuse to avoid us.
An excuse to ignore us.

Sigh~

Its very hard for us to find the key you threw.
Open it back yourself.
Let us in.

We are all concern for you.

*~MaeYan~* ♥9:30 PM

I agree.
Sometimes I find it hard to communicate with you.
I thought I was the only person.
I found out there were others too.

You wears a mask.
Covering the ugly inside.

No doubt we all wears on a different mask,
in order to play multiple roles.

Its weird how things can turn so ugly in just a day.

*~MaeYan~* ♥9:15 PM

I really wonder..

When did I cry infront of you.
When did I pour out my soul to you.

There are times I regret duin certain stuff.
But one thing for sure,
dis is not the case.

I never regreted not staDing,
for I know I did.
No matter how much I rant bout for not staDing,
its juz a lie to conceal stuff.

Everytime I walk in d exam hall I gibe my all,
for dats how much I staD-ed
I know I did my very best,
for I staD-ed.

Like I said,don't judge me.

There are stuff you really don't know.

All you see is what I want you to see.
Thats all that you're see-ing.
You don't know the indepth of the full stowie.

He has always been nice n caring.
I was the one whu pushed him aside.

I know these situations happens,
but I can handle it.
No matter how sober I will be,
I'll still handle it.

Sometimes,
Its not just your support dats needed.
I need you to not judge me.
Need you to not assume things that you don't know.
I can tell you the full stowie,but perhaps another time.

Like I said,did you even noe I'm plannin of quittin?
There are reasons behind it.
And its not becoz I did not staD properly.
Its not becoz I gave up on staDin

I'm not as readable as you think I am.


ps: xmb! tell vinniee its okay =) (I'm still lazey to reply him =x)


*~MaeYan~*
♥1:36 PM

Short msg:

Yannie's back in town!! xD

Will update bloggie soon kay =D wif picturessss!!!! kekex!



Indonesia was fun =D

Juz got back home 2hrs ago? =p

dead tired now.


ps: i've got sunburn! D= i'm so lobster nowww T_T



pps: xmb~ i'm sorry.


ppps: IF you have a problem wif him tell me straight in my face. you DON'T have the right to tell ppl off! Tell me whu you are instead of talkin behind me.


*~MaeYan~* ♥11:03 PM

Short msg:

I'll be away on holiday for a few days.
Saturday - late Tuesday.
I will only be bringin my Digi.
Urgent sms-es will be replied =)
Miss me just sms me ^^

Flights at 1pm
Leavin house at 10.30

And I'm still on9 -_-
hahaha! actually so dat I'll tired myself out..
den I can 100% sleep in plane! xD

Cya peepss~!!!

ps: nana~~!! Enjoy your b'day kay ^^ *muacksss*



pps: xmb~ remember eat med + take care kay ^^~



ppps: dei michi~ sleep early lah.. ur flu n cough haven recover lehh!! =p


*~MaeYan~* ♥5:49 AM

Woke up supa early 2day.. klahh not very early lah.. bt still kinda ;p hehe.. anyway~ I forgot to set alarm! =O lucky I kinda woke up halfway n set.. hehe =x If not that time nana.. I REALLY juz woke up nia =X hehe..

Neway~ went to michi's hse today.. half way der liow I suddenly remember that I forgot to take the butter! D; nvm lah.. I go buy nia lurh.. hehe.. So I was der we (me michi jin) were takin our own sweet time.. den suddenly nana msg O_O class end at 3!!! D= *panicsss*

That was when we started ro rush.. lolsss.. den I made sum excuses to pick her up late =x den another excuse so dat jin pick her up instead =XX Well~ at least we manage to surprise nana ^^v

It was funnie hiding everything from her -_- n we tot you suspectin liow.. haha! and even funnier when mich keep on halau you out from the kitchen.. xD

Here are some pictures.Enjoy. xD (din snap the duin-in-process,coz rushin n hands dirty =x so lazey lorh..)

ohhh~ and paiseh pictures are blur =/ hand shake to muchie d.. hehe..

♥9:01 PM

Sometimes it doesn't even matter if you are dissapointed in me.
It doesn't matter if you think I did not behave myself.
If you think i'm complaining you're wrong.

Don't ever judge me.
There are reason for everything I'm duin now.
If you think I deserve all this,perhaps you're ryte.
I could have deserve it.
BUT don't judge me for the reasons you never knew.

I complain as I wish.
I procasinate as I wish.
I bring everything upon myself as I wish.

The are too many reason you don't know.
I don't think I could ever tell you,
since you are already judgin me.

There are olwiz reasons as to why I complain.

I game as I wish.
I sleep as I wish.
I staD as I wish.

Where were you when I needed to tok 2 sum1?
Where were you when I wanted to share my problems?
Where were you?
You close yourself up on me.
You choose to push me aside.
You choose to leave me all alone.

Perhaps in my private you supported me.
But you only supported me for the things I wrote der.
What bout the things I never told?
What bout all the problems I've been facin?

Poeple do run away from stuff.
I admit I am.
I'm tiring myself out,
in order to not think bout anything.

Please don't judge me.

I wish I could tell you alot of stuff.
I wish you would be here to listen.
Yet you choose to judge me.
You choose to see only the surface.

I'm sorry if you're dissapointed in me.
To tell you frankly,
I honestly don't know what am I still duin here.
Here in CAT/ACCA.

Everytime you say you will support me.
We shall work hard togather.
Do you know that I'm already close to given up?
Do you even know that I'm considering leavin?

yan really tired le.
you wanna judge me I nothing to say.
however,I shall listen to you.
I will behave but perhaps no longer in this course.

*~MaeYan~* ♥11:39 PM

Short msg:

I got hit in d eye again today D= (xing n darren say its balance dee -_-) well~ its not dat pain lah.. compare to David's de.. hehe.. at least no blue black merh =)

Anyway~ mock today was =/ I kinda started wif only 80marks? T_T *snifff* I couldnt remember how to do cash flow statement at all.. sighh~ Hopefully can pass lah =) hehe..


Went badminton after mock.Big turn up =D (me,joey,jodie,jong,kenny,xing,cc,cy,han,darren) alot kan?? heheee..


Frisbee after dat.. din play muchie.. xing says i'm very lazey D': klahh.. mayb I am =x hehehe..

Now my legs are sore =(


ps:michi nana! cya both 2moro^^


*~MaeYan~* ♥9:41 PM

If only I told you the truth.
If only I had the guts to tell you.
At least you would have get to see her.

I really didn't know what to reply,
when you say you got her the teddy.
I really didn't know what to do,
when you say you're going to see her 2moro.
I really didn't know what to tell you,
when you thought you saw her.
At that time,I knew you saw her.

Panic.
I wanted to talk to merv.
I wanted him to tell you.

I'm sorry that I lied.
Lied that everything is alright.
I made you promise not to try seeing.
For I knew you would see her again.

I try hard to keep you focus,
to stay strong.
Yet,I failed miserably.


xmb de jie.
I'm sorry I din tell your di earlier.
At least he could have come find you.
All I can do now is make him not find you.
I'm sorry that you couldn't see him one last time.
lily jie,对不起。


ps:I've no mood to staD le.. It will be a miracle if I can pass 2moro's exam.

*~MaeYan~* ♥10:53 PM

Suddenly everything doesn't seem important anymore.
The urge to be there right now is strong.
To be there when the news is being told.
To know that everything will be alright.

Groping around in the dark ain't comfortable.
Blinding sunlight blurs a person vision.

The time thats left will be the best.
That's all that can be said.


ps: shyt~ I haven finish staDing T-T

*~MaeYan~* ♥8:29 PM

Yanniee can't sleep =( this is becoming a super bad habit..

I'm sleeping like 6am in the murning?! D= nocturnal liow.. omg~!


n not to mention i'm olwiz hungwy at this hour of the time -_- eat liow how sleep leh? dun eat den next thing u noe die in my sleep =x choiii~! *touch wood* hehe.. aiyak~! I soOoo lazey walk downstairs.. wun go find food de lah ;p hehe..


I'm suppose to be staDing =___= but but.. nothing seems to enter my brain leh!! D: howwww?? haihzzz.. die lorh lidat..


I've been thinkin alot since last murning's sms from you.. I wonder why are you telling me all of a sudden.. We both know how things will end up again.. I really like how things are this few days.. keep it like dis hao mah? don't leave me all alone hao mah? my heart warmed when you told me the truth.. same goes for me.. but things are better like dis.. at least dis is wud I think..


ps: rest more leh xmb~

pps: my ear hurts! T-T I think it bleed.. noooooo~~ *snifff*


*~MaeYan~* ♥5:53 AM

wuakakaa.. i'm dam sleeeppppy now .___. all thx to the t10 theories.. *yawnz*


was staDing half way and guess what! I actually fell alseep. orz. diediedieeee

Suddenly cravin for strawberry ice-cweam =/ I wan eat! =(


ohyar~! I wanted to post pictures of saturday + sunday's dinner.. It was both equally gud XDDD. bt i'm too lazey to do it now =p hehe..


n banana-chan~ u still haven say wud u wan for your b'day D'= wud to get for you lah lidat? a banana? =DD hehe..


Went frisbee today,very few of us nia.. well~ wud to do.. all staD merhh.. exam like just round the bend?! =O anyway,wasn't concentratin today =x sowie mummy xing.


Ohyar~! Granmama came today XDDD and guess wud Granpa looks more smart deee.. kekex.. the effect of a gf! xD hehe.. shall update my family tree soon..


Anyway,exam's on thursday 8.30-11.45am! I wan sleep T.T hehe.. So wud am I duin here anyway -_- Well~ I was staDing wun.. den decided to blog abit sin.. after dis I shall go back to dating my books n notes again kay.. kekekex..


Friday I book nana-chan deee.. dam long din see you n mich liow.. haha! We shall hang out bit bit kay ^^ since I juz finz mock exam and got no class on dat day.. teeheee~ So I shall come your coll around 3pm? see lahh.. I so nice be your driver.. bila belanja minum? ;p hehe..


Klahh.. I go back to my books again lah.. tataz~


ps: xmb~ take care of your sore throat lah =)


pps: I wan eat ice-cweamz!!!!



*~MaeYan~* ♥10:07 PM

.____. I wan lvl. but maple hates me T.T dun lemme lvl.. keep laggin meeee.. *sobss*

I ave granma d!! orz!!


I'm supa annoyed wif the opposite house now.. piff~ their house alarm has been ringin since I reach home? 6+pm till now 1+am still goin on n on n on n on~ @.@ haihz~~



ps: i'm hungwy =x



pps: fever is still lurvin me! D=

*~MaeYan~* ♥1:30 AM

I've learned,
that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.



I've learned,
that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.



I've learned,
that it takes years to built up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.



I've learned,
that it's not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.



I've learned,
that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that you better know something.



I've learned
that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do
but to the best you can do.



I've learned
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.



I've learned
that it's not what happen to people that's important.
Its what they do about it.



I've learned
that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.



I've learned
that it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

*~MaeYan~* ♥9:32 PM

Loving you was wrong.
Continue loving you is foolish.

Fact is I'm just no longer in there anymore.
Fact is I could be replaced easily.

I will not shed a tear for you anymore.
For it has drain me off to much.

If you want to lie to your own heart,
go ahead.
I don't want to know anymore.

I doubt you bother anyway.
I doubt again that I'm ever needed.

*~MaeYan~* ♥10:22 PM

If that was your motive.
You had succeeded.

I wonder why I care.
Why I bother.
Why it hurts.

If this is what you really want.
Go ahead.

I made the wrong move.
Shouldnt have bother telling you.
I thought at least you care.
I was wrong.

You wouldnt have bother,
if I was okay or sad.

You wouldnt bother,
if I were to even dissapear.

I'm just no one to you.


You made your motive noticed.
You made it clear.

Stop making me cry you ***!

Oh wait,you don't care either do you?

*~MaeYan~* ♥11:37 PM

心很疼。
泪水不停的流。

希望你开心吧！
这就是你要的吧!

好想不理。
可是，偏偏让我看到了。
好想不管。
可是，却像一把刀，刺进我心里。

你是要我难过，才开心的吗？
哪~你办得到了。

一次又一次的你让我流泪。

*~MaeYan~* ♥4:03 AM

decided to go check check temp.

sharks~

havin high fever. -_-


pifff~ havta start sleepin early liowww


Dis sunday got class leehhh T___T *sniff* 9-5pm @___@ die

ps: did badly for progress test.

pps: thx for listenin

ppps: i'm okie =)

pppps: mummy did u go KBU? spill all ^^




*~MaeYan~* ♥4:10 AM

It all begin when I got maple from mich~ haha.. Had been playin till late nite early morning.. =X hehe..

So blur blur me woke up early n went to mich house to wake her up.. why lehh? coz have lunch date wif nana XD teehee~ piff~~ havta walk dam alot kay D'= anyway, lunch was at KDU? Well, saw lil pregnant fwen der.. and juz tok awhile? (dun so lazey lah u -_-)

Then,kidnap nana frm coll =D wuaKAkakaa.. but ended up her parents called when we were maplin halfway? =S diedieee

Today,din play much durin frisbee.. dun really feel like playin =/ dunno why ehh.. hehee.. BUT!! dam alot ppl lehhhh!!! The Student Council came? They had a match n nid help frm Dingy and all.. kekeex..

Sien leh.. 2moro got class T.T *snifff* I wan sleeeeep till late lateee =X

ps: PT2 result out 2moro! =O

*~MaeYan~* ♥9:42 PM

Short msg:

Yan is feeling feverish.
Yan can't sleep.

*~MaeYan~* ♥7:04 AM

原来放手，不容易。
美好回忆，更难忘。
说声抱歉，也没用。

后悔，也来不及了。

*~MaeYan~* ♥3:00 AM

十月四号，七点五十五分。

我累了，放手了。
再也不想流泪了。
从今在也不理了。
在记忆中，我不存在了。
就让我离去吧。
一切就如此的结束。

在我脑海里，你，
以被擦了。

*~MaeYan~* ♥12:38 AM

Sigh~
what have I done.

Its too late to say sorry.

Yet,all I can think of is sorry.

*~MaeYan~* ♥7:52 PM

♥3:07 AM

Short msg:
Here are some pictures. Hope you all will lurve it. Enjoy. =)

*~MaeYan~*

♥7:07 PM